Break through

A few years ago, I was following an Indian guru doing mantra work to purify my kharma. That day was supposed to be a very powerful time to purify my kharma, from an astrological point of view. I was very determined. Thirty minutes passed. Sixty minutes passed. Nothing happened as I continued the mantra. Ninety minutes passed, and again nothing was happening in me. I was even more determined that something would happen.

After ninety five minutes of doing the mantra, all of a sudden, memory more than 2000years old came to me so clearly. It lasted for five to seven minutes, such a strong feeling of emotion. I was supressing, holding the mmemory of pain and sadness. I was observing Jesus being crucified. That was extremely painful and sad to observe. At that time, the emotional energy was so painful. I had to let go all of that pain that had been suppressed. After continuing the mantra, I wasn't really expecting this kind of thing to happen.

It was a huge relief for me. The key point is that, if you have a strong determination to break through something, you must follow that direction. One of the ascended master's teaching says, "Your determination is the activity of the inner will of the presence." Presence meaning God in you.

If you really want to transform or change your life in any way, you must have a strong determination. Keep doing construcitve things until you experience some degree of breakthrough. You may experience it in a small way or medium way, and maybe even an immense breakthrough. You never know how or when the breakthrough will happen. That is why we need to have faith and strong detemination no matter what the conditions or situation is. You may use some powerful spiritual tools such as meditation, prayer, mantra, and contemplation. Keep going until you break through.