Monday, March 29, 2010

Thick wall of resistance?

This is simply my observation, my intuition, without judgment. It seems like we carry so many layers of resistance, thousands of veils that accumulate from past lives and this life. As long as we have this, we cannot really see the truth or light from the universe or within us. When a hundred thousand people have these veils, it creates chaos and confusion in our world.

I may be aware that some people do not think or hear these things, but I started to see it more and more. People are carrying invisible veils in them or around them.

The veil, or invisible wall, can me a mental or emotional representation of resistance, resentment, fear, disappointment, uncertainty, human emotional things, or some trauma. We may be carrying this around for centuries. By the way, when you do quality muscle testing, you can find out more details about this. As long as we keep these walls around us, it is hard to really find truth, freedom, or happiness. You know the truth, but knowing the truth and being the truth are totally different things. You can learn from books, or cds, or lectures, but in order to be the truth, you must release and cleanse this invisible wall of veils.

I am asking you, if you are open, can you ask yourself or your presence to remove, cleanse, and annihilate these veils one by one? It is not fun, just struggle and confusion from having them. We need to fully surrender to our presence, to God within us using the Letting go process or the violet consuming flame. Also, ask the angels and ascendent master's support in this.

When you are really sincere and open and serious for your freedom, I do feel that the first step of freedom is purification. In this case, release and remove all of those veils around you. You need to have a strong commitment to your freedom, with a sincere heart, to go deeper and deeper in your state of freedom.

I feel like we do not need to be wishy-washy or make excuses. Those things are a waste of energy and time. If you can, make a full commitment to your freedom and happiness. Then you can bring deeper levels of happiness and freedom to yourself, other people, and the world around you.

Monday, March 22, 2010

Is it time to go inside of you?

Can you ask yourself sometimes, "Why am I keeping myself so busy?" Is it because I feel too lonely or am afraid of being alone? If I keep some quiet time, some slowed down time, do I fear that I will be separate from society? Or you could ask, "Am I very uncomfortable with myself, not trusting of myself alone that I keep myself so busy?" Am I covering something up? Am I afraid because I don't know who I am or what to do?

Can you make time for thirty minutes to a couple hours and be totally quiet and alone? Why do we need to keep busy all the time? Do you know that the answer is within you? If you feel some resistance to going deep inside of yourself, why don't you simply accept the resistance. Accept the fact that you simply don't know how to go deeper. This is the first step of going deeper.

Can you ask yourself sometimes to make yourself consciously alone and quiet? Do nothing, just be. Make mental, emotional, and physical space for yourself. Consciously just be. If you feel like you don't know how to just be, then accept this fact.

I feel like it is time to go deeper. It is time for deeper healing and transformation, time for awakening. No more waiting or excuse. It is a very intense time. If you feel like this is me, this is your time, can you put full energy and focus into it? If you use a lens to connect the sunlight, you can make fire. If you move around the lens, you cannot make fire.

Is it time for you to go inside to find the answer to your happiness, freedom, and awakening? When I see people, including spiritual seekers, many people look at this teacher or this organization, that kind of method. Even if you find a specific teacher or group, it still seems as if people are looking here and there, waivering. Your mind and heart is not fully there, not fully focused yet. I am simply asking you if it is time for you to really focus for your awakening, freedom, and happiness? Instead of always looking for help from a teacher, guru, or a certain method, or through money, material gain, and power, why don't you go inside yourself?

If you still are wondering, looking for answers from outside, ask yourself why you always depend on the outside world? I feel that until we find the right path, we constantly ask ourself why we do this or that. Instead of asking advice from loved ones, friends, and gurus, can we create the habit of looking inside to find the answer? All the necessary answers are within us.

Monday, March 8, 2010

Break through

A few years ago, I was following an Indian guru doing mantra work to purify my kharma. That day was supposed to be a very powerful time to purify my kharma, from an astrological point of view. I was very determined. Thirty minutes passed. Sixty minutes passed. Nothing happened as I continued the mantra. Ninety minutes passed, and again nothing was happening in me. I was even more determined that something would happen.

After ninety five minutes of doing the mantra, all of a sudden, memory more than 2000years old came to me so clearly. It lasted for five to seven minutes, such a strong feeling of emotion. I was supressing, holding the mmemory of pain and sadness. I was observing Jesus being crucified. That was extremely painful and sad to observe. At that time, the emotional energy was so painful. I had to let go all of that pain that had been suppressed. After continuing the mantra, I wasn't really expecting this kind of thing to happen.

It was a huge relief for me. The key point is that, if you have a strong determination to break through something, you must follow that direction. One of the ascended master's teaching says, "Your determination is the activity of the inner will of the presence." Presence meaning God in you.

If you really want to transform or change your life in any way, you must have a strong determination. Keep doing construcitve things until you experience some degree of breakthrough. You may experience it in a small way or medium way, and maybe even an immense breakthrough. You never know how or when the breakthrough will happen. That is why we need to have faith and strong detemination no matter what the conditions or situation is. You may use some powerful spiritual tools such as meditation, prayer, mantra, and contemplation. Keep going until you break through.

Monday, March 1, 2010

The Law of Attraction

I'd like to share some experience and thought about the law of Attraction. The last three weeks or so have found me looking for a roommate, for financial reasons. I have started to see small and interesting phenomenon from this process. A few weeks ago, two young people called me. Both were artists, or into the arts. Another day, two women called me, both from asian backgrounds. The next time, two women made an appointment to come, but cancelled. A couple days ago, two middle-aged men came to my place to see my space. Both were in the process of divorce. At the same time, they are open to experiment with my healing work.

Then I realized that this is such an interesting phenomenon. I may attract this situation and people, but at the same time, like attracts like. It is one of the universal principles. The universe is showing me that this principle exists, very clearly. The Law of Attraction.

From a healing transformation freedom point of view, we seek how to attract a supply of freedom, happiness or better opportunity. First, we must cleanse and purify ourselves as much as we can through using the violet flame or drinking higher vibrational water or organic wholesome food. At the same time, we must forgive oursleves and others. One of the powerful affirmations of forgiveness is I AM, the law of forgiveness and consuming flame of all inharmonious action and human consciousness.

At the same time, we need to connect divine consciousness, our presence and God within us to continuously elevate and purify our consciousness for our freedom and awakening. This continuous work, will deepen our concsciousness and is essential, with deep continuous surrendering to our presence. Then our vibration becomes pure and higher, and naturally we will start to attract higher vibrational people or things.